Day 4 - Walking by faith, and not by sight is not always easy

The most interesting and nerve wrecking part of this journey is walking by faith, and not by sight. The day I made my decision it was very clear, but there are days during this journey when my mind becomes cloudy and confusing. Sometimes I question whether or not I made the right decision. Just as I begin to question, the phone will ring, or I will meet someone that reconfirms that I am following God's will, and not my own. The human part of us is so conditioned to depending on others to dictate our worth, and pay us accordingly. There is always a constant battle between our human and spiritual beings. I am happy that on most days I follow spirit, and I have learned to establish my own self-worth.

During this journey I have encountered those who have been against me, and those who have been for me. Interestingly enough, it is those who are against me that give me the most motivation. This journey has also created a loss of those that I thought were really good friends, but I have gained better friends along the way.
I often hear people say have faith, and I remember questioning the depth of that statement. Now I know what it means. It is so cool to see the goals and visions that I wrote down several years ago finally materializing. I am happy that I wrote them down, because I have something concrete to constantly remind myself of the wonderful works of God when I begin to waver. Walking by faith and not by sight is not always easy, but it is very worth it. It brings me a sense of security that neither job nor person could ever provide for me. This is one of the few times in my life that I have ever been so clear about what God has directed me to do.